alzheimer-free

im again playing with irreconcilable words.  how can bumming be an inspiration and how can inspiration come from bumming around?

i have realized that this has been the circle of events that my life has been rounding about for years.  each time i feel bad, sad, stumped or low i bum around.  the past week was not really a bum week since i was doing an entry for the philippine art awards made from century-old rail road ties (which is illegal to collect by the way..hehehe).  but i kind of run thru it lazily by occasionally running to my room for the AC fix in the heat of the afternoon sun!

i notice that i may bum around because the necessary crude systems and operational quick fixes were installed at my accudish satellites biz project.  i have leveled the boat on the 3rd month for smooth sailing ops without my presence (which is the longest in my projects).  i know that further polishing would make it ready for expansion which i dont usually do on a new venture without a 3-year ground test.

i may bum around because the challenge of making the recent biz project work is not so demanding after three months.  i may be very lucky that i have picked trustworthy staff to run the projects on auto pilot by the time i get bored to reap in assets (mostly without checking a cent).  i maybe again finding a fire to burn my desire to make some new projects work.  the fire of sadness is the most effective emotion!  lately, i was forcing some situations by placing in unnecessary moves just to be sad!  i was addicted to the idea of being sad that im artificially creating situations to be sad because it drives me.  that drive will helps me create a new project that could be either financially rewarding or create a seemingly impossible feat to reality.

waaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!  when will this cycle end!hehehehe

its 9:33pm, august 3 and a wednesday.

i can’t still start my philippine art awards entry.  perhaps im expecting of something out of the ordinary to get me going.  something simply exciting that is simple and real.

but i found that the word "real" is very endangered if not non-existent in this world now.  people have varying views on what is real when ironically there is always the simplest of answers.

i want to do an artwork with varying levels of depth.  this depth produced by different components will make an artform of shadows.  shadows that if seen slightly left of center will make a different impression than from the right of center.  even if you look straight on it, differenent lighting placements will produce a different appeal to a viewer.

i guess this is life for most people.  we tend to change our view of reality and truth by choosing the position where the dark spots in our lives will be covered in shadows and normal things will be highlighted in spot light.  reality is relative for us because we choose how we see things and for some sick influential people they influence light’s placements.

reality in this artworks’s case can only be seen by a dead straight flat light made by a simple camera flash.  its evenly lit getting the relativity of how we choose to see.

ofcourse PR people will hate this because they influence light like in the ZTE-NBN deals.  its like a game of chess but is never real.