alzheimer-free

i was reflecting last week.  i seem to act with urgency, drama and excitement on just simple eventualities of my life!  eventualities of not so real stuff compared to shaking problems of a typical human being.  i act as if it was a world of problems when real people’s problems is a kaleidoscope of sorts!  real problems of family life, finances, relationships, mindsets, failures, challenges and even dreams that are far beyond my ka-OAhan complications!

i felt that i am so loved by the lord.  wala man ko sang real problems gid of that magnitude.  i only have conceptual problems that i create, maybe to excite me and maybe to solve most-likely problems of the future (imagine sa future pa)!hahaha in short, binuang lang!hahaha here are some:

i felt na i can’t decide to commit on marriage now because i don’t want to have a family life like most people.  sa survey, 84% of families has either or both parents having extra marital affairs (and i bet its far higher that stat since damo man hindi manugid or madakpan).  ofcourse it is a kaleidoscope of reasons.  things from a nagging wife, a less earning breadwinner, a poor connect on the level of conversations, a “libog” of sorts to physical attractiveness, an obsession for material things and a lot of other stuff.

things that i slowly and tried to continually solve now to have none of these issues affect any of my kids when they grow up.  to have a perfect childhood!  solutions that are too simple and weird to do.  i know na hindi na ko madala subong sang physically attractive chic since i’ve realized years before that beauty and sexiness is just superficial.  things i learned from dating beautiful women.  after mag-edad ano?hehehe ofcourse, kasimple sang sabat.  you shouldn’t sell your whole life with a superficial beautiful gal since in your 40s it is just a 10,000 peso experience to have a 20 year old super gorgeous and clean chic!  just joking with common logic!  i have created conceptual problems of these sorts earlier in life pero i try to not go overboard to make it a future learning and not a present problem..hehehe

if kami ni crystal, i know na hindi issue ang meeting a much more intelligent chic to share ideas and life with since honestly when we were a couple i never met someone more mentally exciting than her!  hindi man issue ang wealth potentials (i guess these type of issues drives most family problems) since we both acknowledge that wealth is just a state of mind.  people don’t have financial flexibilty because their minds are closed.  so in a physical, intellectual and wealth potential sense i know that these issues are already solved by creating conceptual (but not so real) problems that may have hurt both of us in some way.  but to not bring a tear to our future kids!

my fear is what if i’d like someone for “no reason”?  someone inferior in a finger-counting sense but defies reason.  someone i can’t label as just beautiful, just intelligent and just wealthy to kill off interest.  someone i just like without thinking!  i know the answer to these as i knew the answer to being drawn physically to people years before, but these can be only solved by being in the situation and not as a 3rd-party reader of self-help books!  i know that feelings are “fickle”.  daw “tigbaw nga ginadapya sang amihan”.  pero i won’t know until i cross the bridge.  what if love is really risking (not placing into consideration being a part of the 84%) just to be personally elated at that instant?  pero daw sala, daw ka selfish.hehehe pero hindi ko kabalo.

i guess it is still best to solve these issues before marriage (i guess it is the primary purpose of having a pre-marriage relationship).  in a philippine societal setting, i guess women rush to marriage when they have physical contact with the one they have present relationships.  it is not that they are ready for the long-haul but its because of a security need.  so i guess its part of the reason why it is a high 84%++ ( i would even bet that its 95% if gasugid lang tanan maayo..hehehe daw laka gd man families ko na kilala na la prob..hehehe).  ginapilit ta lang neglect ang reality because we are cataracted with the feeling of love.  if you noticed, puro lang “ako” dire ang may issue.hehehe  i trust crystal morethan i trust myself.  she is the only person i know who is a well made and a strong person that is less affected by these ka-OAhan stuff..hehe  maybe because of being truly near to the lord.

pero again, nahuya ko sang gnapang-sulat ko.  it is not even comparable to real problems of people.  it’s a future issue i’m trying to solve now.  and it looks superficial.  and i may look like a paranoid.  pero it’s also the same superficial way i handle my businesses that’s why i haven’t failed so far.  again, i wish that my choice is right!hehehe

as i was thinking this evening sa lawn, i can’t explain my feelings.  perhaps i’m more disillusioned, happy, sad, thankful and amazed of how things are just coming in connection.  i feel like i’m playing a level 21 game of tetris where all of my choices just fit in perfectly (with no logical time for thinking despite crushing pressure).  things are becoming second nature to me and im eye-popped, “how can this be statistically possible?”.

after four years of waiting, our satellite tv project is just unfolding to reality in slow motion of absolute joy!  despite the problems things just fit in perfectly.

1.  i came to know this very artistic internationally trained architect who has the highest CQs (creativity quotient) of all the persons i know in my appreciation.  his creativity transcends beyond visual arts, structural forms, interiors and some wild imaginations of concepts of lines and curves.  i enjoy having coffee with him (most of the time he pays even if its my pleasure..hehehe)!  specifically, i enjoy his imagination in taking worthless pieces of things to look like things of magnified real value.  his treatment of cement and marble, ordinary flush door with glass and a lot of other things.  things you wouldn’t think that only cost this much.  he is ingeniously creative which amazingly shifts my perceptions of value.

and should i say, he is designing our satellite tv shop and some drawing for the vendo?

“ecstatic me”,  i said!

2.  we have a long waiting project of fabricating water vendo machine (we have existing prototypes).  we are however afraid to move on even if we have the knowledge and technology because we dont have the money for it to run properly.  we need to get IPO (intellectual property office) documents for it that would need two years of court hearings on the special court for IPO (i guess we would spend 2M for all the IPO grants, patents, requirements and permits).  all of which are preoperating expenses (luckily pre operating expenses can be amortized)!

our solution?  once our satellite tv project (which could sell 4-6M a month) runs, i’ll risk it all without waiting for the 2-year registration process.  we will do it simultaneously and risk court suits (which i think is just a 40% probability since by deductive reasoning i know that they don’t have the IP).  risking will allow us to place vendos inside malls.  i think we could sell 2400 80z dispensed water per machine.  at 2 pesos per glass that’s 4,800 per machine.  maybe two in the foodourt, two on both back entryways for the stairs, 1 on each floor and 1 on the supermarket.  we’ll have 6 performing assets at 28,800 pieces of 1 peso coins per mall per day at 90% gross profit margin!  water can’t cost 1200 and operating expense wouldnt be over 1800 on a daily basis.  one peso coins?  imagine?  i don’t even plan to make my staff manually count it!  kilohon lang (prob is hindi magba-to ang bangko sang kilohay)!whahahahaha

additonally it is controlled by a PLC (process logic controller) that is connected to an SMS messenger output.  the PLC will interpret the sensors service requests (sensors like TDS meter, low level float swithes, height sensors, weight sensors..i can’t even imagine how was it possible to think of these)  and will send the interpretaion thru SMS (short messenging service or text as oftenly called).  service requests like 25% water level, full coin box, auto-off when someone purposely squeeze in a contaminant and other operational management application that is imaginable to the human mind!  also the machine can receive and interpret commands from sms syntaxes (feeling inventor na gd ang buang!  pati ah..assembly lang ni of readily available modules on the net)

i’m ecstatic on this nitrous spraying moments.  however i am also sad.  with these, i feel that i’m tempted to cross the darkside.  success will allow me to have disposable income of unimaginable proportions.  this could make me afford the best chics in town on a daily basis (i saw that a 10,000 peso chic is drop dead gorgeous, wavy haired, tall, sophistcated with words and sexy!  with no strings attached pa!), get all of the gadgets i need for beyond your comprehension things i so dreamed when i was young, make me more proud and not step on ground, it could allow me to shift opinions of right and wrong together with the opinions of those near me and a lot of other darkside things.

i hope that i can and will still do the right things despite of the tempts and odds.

i can compare the feeling with my early speed chess days where i am amazed that my hand-mind coordination is faster than my eye!  we can finish off in 10 seconds a 30-move 2-bishop ending!  i guess my mind moves my hands without my eye seeing!  ofcourse gnapajogging kami upod sang football team to have less flabby weight for faster hands, we are given the right vitamins and i’m allowed to see my crush without striking a conversation (to increase the killer instinct mindset)!hehehe

our school system tends to prevent us from “thinking like a child”!  artists would often hold art workshops not only for the purpose of teaching kids the love for the arts but to be also amazed with kid’s artworks that is beyond societal inhibitions!  a great influence for an entirely different set of artworks for an art show.

same with business, our school system make us believe that a lot of concepts are impossible.  parang impossibility is the only possibility.  parang if you hear of specualative business concepts people will tend to shrug it off and line delineating words of non-acceptance.  if you make it they’ll buy a book from you!  ofcourse one of the favorite lines i read, “entrepreneurs write the experience in a book, while employee-types love to read the hard experiences and propagate the book without acting”.  perhaps its true.  perhaps we are so wired with impossibilities in our educational system that we have automatic-eject mechanisms when we hear of speculative things.  And will only flip acceptance if we see real results.  to think ideas are of the same value when it was just on “plant stage” and “reap stage”, however the “plant stage” is more exciting!

i’ll write some seemingly impossible things i did in the past 4 months and i will do in the following 4 months.

1.  converting a 20-peso (5 for the sack and 15 for the scrapper) bag of thrash to a 180,000 - 350,000 worth artpiece (see accumosaic.com).  look at the photo of the entry st. anthony public art commission.

2.  have revenues of 4-6M per store per month (opening apr 15 2007) from satellite tv equipments and subscriptions sales, after-sales support, spareparts and people service with only 200,000 in capital!  any cpa would think that its 1:240 equity to sales ratio.  a very risky proposition if not impossible! (note: 4 years to process an approval for this business concept inside sm malls and good reputation from creditors)

3.  sell 20,000 peso worth of water a day with 95% gross profit ratio per sm mall!  how to do that?  10,000 8oz of water per sm mall at 2 pesos per glass!  4 vendos.  use sm’s glasses sa foodcourt para water and electricity lang ang cost.  (note: we are building this vendos ourselves!)

please share a lot of impossible things that you would flip into the realm of possibilities.

let me give you a timeline.  cut ko na lang ang mga petty biz before 18 years old!  i open every birthday to feel that i made good use of the life that god gave me.

at 18: desktop publishing and silkscreen printing
at 19: accuplay gaming lan shop
at 20: accudish satellite tv distribution
at 21: accuplay internet lan shop
at 22: accuload telecom sales (wholesale prepaids)
at 23: accuclear water processing
at 24: accuvend water vending machines
at 25: accumosaic digital media arts

here’s my dream

at 26: accutech innovations (electronic process automation designs)
at 27: an internet selling and factory type operations company
at 28: accudry dried seaproducts (vacuum dried fish processing)
at 29: accurice (rice milling and trading)
at 30: accufarm (farm supplies just in time when our agricultural products tenant’s contract expires)

haven’t mapped out yet the 30-35.  pero my dream is to make a fine community at age 35 where all of my key staff’s families will be there complete with streets and landscaped parkways that we also designed.  so that our kids would be friends morethan business contacts too with all the resources for learning and creativity just on hand on a fine community.  i want this to happen on the formative years of our kids.  im lucky that crystal doesn’t have problems with that plan.

i hope that it could be made!