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i’ll be moving my thoughts and updates to http://accukix.wordpress.com for it to be useful in a sense.  friendster blogs are not crawled by google so as not to have hits.  try searching "accumosaic" in google and all of the 39 hits relate to ours as of 14:41 february 15, 2007.  also some of the article entries are tagged so as to get traffic to some people i mention.  i almost forgot.  searching rj juarez now on google gets me the 1st, 3rd, 5th and 7th hit of the first page.  try searching yours.hehehe

i guess im slightly taking this writing thing seriously.  i’ll laugh a lot if my spare time can still be an earning activity with google adsense.hehehe some people actually earn (3000 USD from just writing because of the 20,000 hits per day traffic).  also, i want to study some technical writing.  i know i love this but i dont have the technical skills for this.

pero i kind of love this without being paid a dime.  actually my definition of love now is doing something happily without being paid (or a more appropriate term is without the need to use or get something in return).hehehehe

joke!

please visit the site often.

ps.  upon the request of sophie, i’ll copy some posts here while my primary blog remains on wordpress.  thanks

what do we treasure about our love one that is beyond compare (or to rephrase that can not be compared)?  sige na gani! in kanto boy terms, "paano mo mapamatud-an nga wala mo ginagamit lang ang imo karelasyon?"
as i noticed most people choose their partner based on physical appearance and attractiveness.  by the time their bodies get bloated (a usual occurence in pregnancy and going to beer junkies) a different assumption of the situation is taken in. when people primarily treasure their partner because of sex(iness) and displayability (what a word!), then the 84% probability that atleast one of the partners is cheating is holding ground (on average 60% of people do, so its a combined 84% probabability that atleast one seriously cheats in a lifetime while presenting a smile to their kids when going home..hehehe).  so enough with the physical comparisons because our only body depreciates and the insatiability of wants only increases.  that’s morethan common sense!hehehe

some people choose their partner primarily on intellect.  this is less of a deteriorating facet.  if you found a superbly intellectual partner, its less likely you’ll find a more intelligent one (because finding a sexier choice is easier..hehehe) but it is also inevitable that people are only getting smarter. so as to shaken this choice, when a new intelligent human being just presents itself from mere social probabilities.hehehe

on wealth, there are families broken because one partner became broke!  also, some expectations on earning potential is not met. their is also a risk that a chosen partner has a disastrous spending problem which might again rock the boat when things get rough or a better choice promote itself.  people are oftentimes blinded by money (infact the secret of successful individuals is to always choose ideas before money)

there is always a wealthier person, a sexier person, a more intelligent person and other comparisons which can be presented in a more dramatic superlative adjective.hehehe people who never consider this possibility will ofcourse blindly fall to its trap.  i guess not morethan 90% could say they had not used this simple parameters on choosing the one they have now..  i wanted to hear things that may sound "weird".  something distinct you like in a person that is beyond compare but will be of no value to most people.  what’s valuable to you (which you can exchange to all of the above parameters) that’s actually of no real value?

a cynic view, are we just silver coating on the word "love", a real need to "use" people if we value them on intellect, wealth or physical attraction?  can their be "love" minus the "use"?

just joking, after your valentine spending rituals!

i was touched by this passage: "plans fail for lack of counsel, but with many advisers they succeed"

the "consultative council" thing that i have been practicing for years was amazing to see in a bible’s passage. its included in bro. pio español’s talk on the kerygma feast last feb 7. the talk was about "the key to winning every race". perhaps it is true. this has been my secret for not loosing a dime in business. i talk to a lot of people on critical decisions without hesistancy. most of them thinks that i’m better to decide on my own and that their opinion is of less value (since most are not entrepreneurs). if only they knew, that i really draw ideas from them and mix it.  even if i don’t follow all of their ideas perfectly, its helpful..hehehe

i talk to people coming from the streets, from people where i strucked a 2 hour conversation out of nowhere (most of the times not remebering their names), to people from the academe, to corporate folks, to government people, to inventors, to artists, to pedicab drivers, to experienced entrepreneurs, to old people (which i like talking because of timely wisdom), to kidnappers even, to our parish priest, to some crushes here and there and to my key people. this process offers a diverse view of things on differents social, political and just plain life setting! this diverse view of things taken piece-wise will be anything but utterly useless. but if mixed together with an open mind you would consider things that were not done before.

something quite magical. something excitingly genius. some idea that’s as pure and complicated as love..hehehe perhaps when people ask, where did you get all these new business concepts? im answering "we developed it". ofcourse its the only thing we did, build on and develop to what would have been useless singular ideas. i guess most of the heralded genius concepts are found on the streets and the bible. its not mostly from white-collar corporate desks..hehehe and i guess even my most wildly-creative marketing concepts are influenced by the bible..its seeing outside the box of normalism!whahahaha what a word..

let me give an example, a pedicab driver whom i talked wants water to be priced low for him to afford it for his family (market demand), an entrepreneur friend says that its impossible for a lot of costs are involved (cost acctg), an electronics enthusiast was excited about automating magnetic valves but is blank on how to use it (the cost controller), an established eccentric inventor friend can draw up the plan for the challenge’s sake but do not know how to sell (technical design), an automation engineer friend who don’t have a break to be popular wants to use a PLC-SMS controller (R&D), another one has capital but only knows typical busnesses bound to lose (financial)..hehehe what i did is just add a little of improvements in the engineering design, management of product development and aesthetics and drawing up a marketing plan and voila! its something..waaaaaaaaaaah!hehehe

ok. so enough for that..where is the moral of the story? in our present day society which pushes us to specialize with higher education it kind of veers away from "knowledge enlargement" needed in business and life in general. we are made to be good "technicians", specialist in a sense (even on office work) for us not to own our time to develop a compendium of ideas..or simply not to have the time to have coffee and pasta with these diverse friends at our time..hehehe because of the above paragraph, we tend to be proud and not even consider talking to a lowly takatak boy. because "what would we get from them?" our specialist mind thinks..hehe "im more intelligent than a takatak boy so as for him to not deserve even a minute of my time".

to cut the story short, to have success in life is to humbly ask for advices from a mix of people contrary to what our white-collar success pushes us not to believe. its to listen and ask. plain and simple.hehehe and not complain and wish for something in the sky!

i was driving around the city yesterday in the midst of city traffic to go around some biz friends, cabling contractors (needed an engineering contractor for roof to shop rj11 cabling that follows sm’s standards), lunch with suppliers, some groups study activities and listening to the kerygma feast. me and my apprentice’s topic inside the vehicle was change and our resistance to it. i was sharing how i felt. that i’m reluctant to change although it is inevitable.

i want to be in the same clothes, same friends, same level of reluctant acceptance in conversations, same treatment with acquiantances and the likes. i still want to be hated by the people who despised me, the people who says that im dreaming too much, the people who never believed in my ideas, the people who laughed, the people who thinks we are just bragging about none bankable ideas, the people who once said that i should work instead of dreaming a business from nothing and generally the "can’t do" and "negative people" forcing their nega thought. without their knowledge, they helped me more by not believing. my mind is so wired to be motivated with demotivations! i don’t want all of this to change. maybe morethan half of those people have already changed their minds and hated me less if not liking what i do now. and it eats up my motivation..hehehe also with the projected hyper-growth because of a low point in my life now (hmmm..i usually have hyper-growths on this times), im quite reluctant to change my lifestyle. even if i wanted to have my regular t-shirt and shorts faded if not charred sa kaluma-an parang di na pwede ganoon if some serious typical biz person asks for a meeting (maybe a SY in sometime..hehe who knows?).

i also don’t want to lose my friends now for maybe being grouped with new people for social activities. i want to talk of the same dreams, ideas, sadness and challenges at this entrepreneurial level. ofcourse if i talk about something that is lesser in earning capacity than what i have previously done (they might not be interested in talking about an automatic thing in their assumptions). i remembered processing the certificate of creditable withholding tax sa sm accounting department last month, the officer was saying "you have to go to the owner to correct some entries in the form" and the people who knew me at her back was smiling at me. after a few more stretching of time they joking said, "sya na mapirma"..hehehe crystal was saying that i should dress more professional-like. but its not me! or im just a hard headed resistant to change person.. maybe the only thing that’s been sealing our inevitable growth is my reluctance to change.  instead of growing a seeded project, i plant another seed to be treated as the same lowly seed grower.  but again, 3 of my key people are getting married and so this is maybe the time to grow all our seeds to flourishing trees.  because by the time they have families, we will have different needs.  we have been too patient for grwoth too long but had more experience from it.

daw mapilitan na ko ni magbayo insakto..hehehe

for the past days i was afraid and excited!

i was afraid that i can’t handle this oppurtunity that god beyond comprehension allowed me to have and i was excited that this might just be the oppurtunity that god provided to me to afford a decent family life.  this oppurtunity is sm prime holdings approval of my 4-year on process concept profile!  a satellite tv office inside sm malls.  im afraid that i can’t handle the 10,000 subscribers of panay and the 400 or so being added each month.  im afraid that i can’t handle the financial requirements of the subscriptions (10,000 x 690 subscription/month) is 6.9M.  AccuDish will earn 10% from that. because of the amazement of dream satellite tv’s top execs of our company breaking into the sm mall fortress that had been eluding them for years (for non provincial residing people, this is the best biz site in a provincial setting) they offered us from 4,000 margin per new installation at a minimum.  an out of sm dealership can handle 100 new subscriptions a month at 2000 margin per new installation.  i’m realistically expecting at least this number when the ship runs calm.  and mind that each time we service non-warrantied subscribers from other dealers we could charge 1,000 at a minimum.  im expecting 10% of the market on the minimum, 60% on the maximum and a likely 25-30% on the average.

the above paragraph is my fear.  i fear that i have most of the pieces of this puzzle. i have time and tested experience on satellite systems (even on hacking the firmwares), i have a long-trained experienced core staff for this, i have the support of dream’s top execs because of amazement, i have the support of sm prime because of our accumosaic concept and being bullish, brilliant in a product innovation sense and young! as of now, i have only the amount to support 1 day of inventory requirement and initial development of site.  even if dream would provide me beyond comprehensible credit lines because of long relationships and track record, i am very fearful!

now, where’s the excitement part? i was excited to tell her after that intro that maybe this is the thing that could help us afford to have a decent family life. a respectable duty for our future kids and the likes.  but i was dismayed the past week, it can’t even reach to the above paragraphs.  she says "dali lang, busy gd." and then cuts. that’s 12mn! i know that sgv is that squeezingly efficient with their personnel so i understood continously.  but as the days past by all of my positivist thoughts are slowly loosing morale.  so this evening i forced the issue and told her my piece.  we ended up arguing about time and attention because she would want the topic cutted as fast as possible (maybe because of work pressure that i still understand). i never had the chance to tell her how excited i am to start a family with her.  well maybe its not meant to be.  i’m sad.  but i never have the guilt feelings.  i never felt i did anything wrong.  unlike the previous instances where i’m fabricating problems because i may have been more interested with business, some women or some other stuff. 

i still respect her. this is the consequence of loving a successful person.  but all i wanted was for her to listen without arguing about petty things for 10 minutes to maybe feel happier amidst pressure cooker situations! just listen and nothing else! am i too selfish to continually call for 20 or more times the previous week for a solemn 10 minutes?

daw kasala.